i was only in school for a week and it already seems like forever. i guess that can also be a good thing since we're all gonna graduate and probably will never see each other again. i just wish i talked to some people more. becuz i have the worst lunch ever i cant talk to anyone i wanna talk to. friendships are somewhat fading and i dont like it. soo im trying bust my butt trynna keep in touch with certain people as much as i can but they dont seem to care whatsoever. thats the sad part. but idk people are just so ignorant nowadays its really annoying.
but overall i think i like my schedule just not my lunch. but luckily ms chiu decided to keep the same lunch next semester so i can have lunch with everyone else. idk how many times ive said that i miss how things use to be. it sadens me how nothing ever gets better. in fact it just gets worse. so today wouldve been 2 years. and in 4 days i will officially be single for a whole year. thats the sad part. he probably doesnt even remember what today is and every single time its the 12th of every month it bothers me. ive gotten over the fact that we're not together anymore but the difficult part is being his friend.
he doesnt seem to appreciate any of the things i do for him and thats really sad. he doesnt realize why everyone comes running back to me when i stop talking to them cuz some shit happens. he doesnt realize how good of a friend i am. he doesnt realize that once he finally completely loses me he'll regret it. so what am i suppose to do now? im tired of waiting for things to get better. but i cant or dont know what i can do to make things better.

everything does happen for a reason.
whats meant to be will find its way.