yesterday didnt turn out so bad.
after me and chloe got lunch we called up justin to go bowling.
and he said he'd be there in like idk 30 mins or so? so me and chloe went to best buy to play games and take pictures. haha i really love best buy. its so much fun.
then when we got there justin said joseph was gonna be there soon so we waited for him and decided to play pool instead. joseph showed up just in time when we started and me and chloe lost the first 2 rounds and won the last 2. then went to little caesers to buy some pizza and came home.

idk but i can honestly say that HE CANNOT TAKE A HINT. but yeah i dont know. stupid boys.

some people are very annoying.
so ignoring them only makes them talk more shit. HAH. woow. idiots.
its nice to know you spend so much time on me.

anyways.
soo everyday this week i went out. well except monday.
tuesday i went out with krystal went to puente to ask about the job but the manager wasnt there and we ended up running into her aunt. soo later we to her grandma's and ate dumplings her aunt made. ahah it was gooood.

wednesday went to play pool with chloe& her friend, justin, & joseph . we won both rounds. ahhah even though i did make any in. i dont care. i suck at it and i know already. then went to life and justin and joseph would be the ones that were super excited to play games. -_-. stayed there for a little until me and joseph left to the park to watch a movie and stuff. i kinda wish we ate before we went cuz man joseph was really hungry and i was eh. soo we ordered pizza and told them to drop it off at some random house we were standing in front of. so now im broke. -_- i spent more than 15 bucks. cuz joseph didnt have any cash on him. it was a good night. i finished a whole box of pizza and now im sitting here regretting it. ahha

thursday. went to liana's party like super late. her party started at 2 but we got there like at 6. haha she was mad. not at me but at andrew and adam. it was pretty stupid. cuz liana was mad at andrew and andrew was being pissy. idk everyone was just in a bad moood that day. but the ice cream cake we got her was delicious.

yesterday. i went to watch time traveler's wife. very good movie btw. krytal and her aunt was crying. ahha i didnt cry. i was surprised. uhh then ate at costco & dropped off her brother and went to her camp thingy that she worked at to visit and say hi. very awkward. the kids would just look at me -_- umm. then we went to cue and took a few pictures and went to her grandma's house. krystal was being mean. ahah. jerk. yeep then came home and did nothingg.

today? well i guess im going to get lunch with chloe and we'll see from there.
birthday in a weeek. sorta.

i thought i was done digging this huge hole for myself.
but seems to me im just making things worse.
i actually thought about it before taking action but i guess that isnt my thing.
a lot of things happened the past few days. well a lot more than i expected.
so now im lost. clueless. confused. and of course indecisive.
i dont know what to do. obviously doing nothing doesnt work. -_-

i feel like without electricity i lose contact with everyone. no internet. no phone. i hateee how i never charge my phone so it died on me last night. ugh.
and i couldnt go to practice this morning cuz we only had one car. the other car was parked in the garage and we couldnt open up the garage.
but no matter how much i complain about going to practice, i actually like running.
i guess ms garcia was right. exercising puts you in a better mood.

birthday in 2 weeks. lets see how things turn out.
& i like how i have plans like everyday haha. it keeps my mind off of things.

i didnt do much today. yesterday's race was hella tiring. i ran the 2 mile thingy and i was so slow. :[ o well first race. uhh idk ive been lazy lately and havent been going to practice.
summer is almost over and im kinda excited and sad at the same time. i just wanna get senior year over with and go to college. well sorta.

uhh idk i feel like things are getting better now. but at the same time ive never been so indecisive. i hate it. i honestly dont know what i want at this point. and i feel like im digging this huge hole for myself. sooner or later i wont be able to get out. and everything will be a big mess and im screwed at the end. &i will lose everything i once had.
i find it impossible for me to let go of my past and it bugs the shit outta mee.
im trying so hard but its not working. soo what do i do now?
cuz leaving it as it is and just going with the flow isnt working out apparently.
i dont know maaaaaaaaaaan.
everyone seems to be having problems and i try my best to help them the best i can. but i seem to be soo helpless. er i wish i help solve my own problems like i do with others. :[
at least senior year will be better. hopefully.

today was pretty good. uhh i didnt go to practice this morning cuz maan speed workout yesterday was death. i was to tired. i was on the phone with joseph till 1 30ish and i went to sleep and woke up at 1 pm this afternoon. im happy (:
thenn later on joseph came and picked me up and we went to plateforms and he bought some skate shoes and we stopped by taco bell and got some food. then we went to his house and watched the break up and just chilled. haha we watched a little bit of spideman 3. yeep. then we got hungry and ate at del taco. woot taco tuesday. hahah i was full. and it was hella cold there. then we went to ayala park and he was skating and i sat there and texted. haha it was kinda crowded. some people really suck at skating. well compared to joseph.
then he dropped me offf. and yeeep im tired already. race tomorrow. lame -_-