jacky chan (:

i didnt do much today. yesterday's race was hella tiring. i ran the 2 mile thingy and i was so slow. :[ o well first race. uhh idk ive been lazy lately and havent been going to practice.
summer is almost over and im kinda excited and sad at the same time. i just wanna get senior year over with and go to college. well sorta.

uhh idk i feel like things are getting better now. but at the same time ive never been so indecisive. i hate it. i honestly dont know what i want at this point. and i feel like im digging this huge hole for myself. sooner or later i wont be able to get out. and everything will be a big mess and im screwed at the end. &i will lose everything i once had.
i find it impossible for me to let go of my past and it bugs the shit outta mee.
im trying so hard but its not working. soo what do i do now?
cuz leaving it as it is and just going with the flow isnt working out apparently.
i dont know maaaaaaaaaaan.
everyone seems to be having problems and i try my best to help them the best i can. but i seem to be soo helpless. er i wish i help solve my own problems like i do with others. :[
at least senior year will be better. hopefully.