okaaaaaaay so things have been kinda wack.
yesterday i went shopping cuz i actuallly have money.
got my bikini & a shirt. and today imma go to the mall again.
i hope krystal got her license.
shes taking her test as i type this. haha errrr
long days and short nights. haha lame.
i wish this week would end. and someone would call me for a job.


i really miss him at the moment.

wow knocked out last night.
6 and a half hrs of sleep isnt good for me.
err 2 days since lucky died. :[
i really miss him. but yeah idk.
i worked with krystal yesterday and got 60 bucks. i finally got some money and im so happy.
sorta.
we went to the mall afterwards and we went to look at puppies and aw theyre so cute.
i want one.
& we were walking around and some lady had a dog that looked so much like lucky. :[ it made me sad
but idk we're gonna get another puppy so just it isnt so sad around the house.
andd i really want a job now so i can get a car. like A CAR FOR MYSELF.
i hope that harkins/pacsun/aeropostale/barnes and noble calls soon..

too much for one week period.
i miss lucky a lot
and i hope things get better.
aka i get a job and buy myself a car.

RIP LUCKY<3

06.26.09
RIP Lucky<3

so everyone's been talking about MJ death. pretty sad. even if he molested little kids he was 'the king of pop'

er this morning fuckin jesus kept texting me and im trynna sleep. wtf man. he cannot take a hint obviously. he texted me for the past idk few days and i didnt reply to any of them. er. how annoying.

& im ready to go out today. transformers & the proposal today!

im too lazy to drive around cuz i can never think of where to go
so i just make people come over. ahha
yesterday chloe came over again. we didnt do much except she made me go to the post office with her. i was kinda like wow really waste of my time! but i guess that can also be a good thing.
i havent been so relieved for a long time. and i like this. i feel like idk but its just nice.
& today tu came over. and her mom is crazy period. but it was kinda funny cuz my mom thinks the same thing. so this week is kinda slow. its hard to believe its only been a week. it seems like its been forever.! but i guess it can be a good thing right?
i wanna talk to certain people but dont really have the chance to. seems like a lot of people are always busy and im the only one that never has plans.
it was nice talking to kayleen for a little today. it feels like i havent talked to her for a very long time. but its only been a week or so.
idk every day has been very slow. i want to work so i can get some money and it can help make the day go by faster.
errr. i wish some people didnt have summer school.

no plans today hahah. dang. but im trying to make plans to go to the beach.
uhh i think i finally made the best decision ive made for the past year. no regrets now.
& i cant believe how many people i saw at walmart that i knew.
i needa get a lot done this summer. not really. but i should start reading. cuz if i read like last year. its gonna take me the whole summer. ahah
i think my summer might get a little better now that some stupid problems are resolved.
yeeeeah.
i still need a job. haha

well things just kinda came up today
i wasnt really planning to go out
but i did anyways
first i came home from the doctor
then i picked up adam and turned in our applications for harkins
then later on we went to liana's and andrew and nelson was there.
watched a movie and played cards and the wii.
it was fun. at first it was kinda lame cuz everything was so awkward
and i was being a total bitch towards andrew. HAH WHAT A DOUCHEBAG
he deserves it. HAH.
but yeah im tired now.

well yesterday didnt turn out that bad
uh me tu chloe and adam went to the cooper's house well the fake one at least.
it was kinda creepy. ahah its all good.
then i dropped off tu and adam came home and went with chloe to walmart. but then my mom wanted me home so i just went home.
thenn todayy. i was happy to eat left over bbq. but idk i feel kinda sick at the moment.
i napped for about 2 hrs or so then chloe texted me so i got up and showered. she came and picked me up cuz fuck my mom. geez. if my summer is gonna be like this omg fml.
so we went to her house. helped her wash her car. i didnt really do much though so its all good. then we walked to harkins it was the most exercise ive had for a while.
watched hangover. ahhaha lmao that shit is hilarious. i like it.
well i dont think imma go out this week. just gonna stay home and sleep. but i really need to turn in my job applications.
i need a job like NOW.
i hope the beach thing works out this week. i really wanna goooooo

super fail

the party is alright.
not much going on
krystal ugh suchma disappointment. now i know what jessica and carol meant. -_-
but its all good
jade came and left. cuz of her sister's problems.
yeeep
adam is gonna come soon around 6ish.
and andrew and kayleen bailed at the last min. o well
its all goooood.
tu is leaving at 7ish. :[
imma be a loner.

she liked it a little too much

okaaay soo today i basically went food shopping with my mom all day to get food for saturday.
uhh came home. talked to tu on the phone then fell asleep. called andrew to see if he was ready
picked him up then drove a super long way to johnny rockets. ahah he had his eyes closed the whole timee. got there and i dragged him cuz he couldnt see
i think he was pretty surprised. and liana came with cupcakes and caked andrew. ahhahah! then i got frosting on my butt :[
uhh ate. krystal came. then left. then ate ahah then we walked around and dressed up andrew and adam. ahah it was actually pretty cool. uh walked around some more. saw these kids playing with water. ahah these girls are such sluts. ahahha
then yeah took them home. it was nice.
successful day.

happy birthday andrew (:

& its the last day of school. nicce. so i did pretty good on my presentation. well it was alright. pulled me up to a b- so im good. aha and uhh it didnt feel like it was the last day.
but its all good. im happy its over. woot senior year.
i didnt do much today. 2nd period was just whatever. finished up presentations and played cards.
lunch we had a pot luck and damn so much food. i was so full
4th period had a party so i ate more. ahah
6th period was super boring. me and michael were walking around the school for over an hr. ahha
& today is andrew's birthday
so i came home. baked him a retarded looking cake. got him a card and a shirt and got some balloons and dropped it off at his house. & tomorrow night we're gonna take him out for dinner at johnny rockets. ahha. how funn.
:]
im excited.

hell yeahh

tomorrow is the last day. FINALLY. im practically done with my finals. just gotta present tomorrow for bio which im kinda not prepared for. i feel like my presentation is too short. :[
buuut im happy cuz i have 5 a's pretty much. YES. its IMPOSSIBLE to get an A for bio.
but whateverr.
so today was whatever. im so glad i dont have mr power anymore. geez and pre cal was good. just took the test. it was pretty easy. i didnt use a calculator. ahah super beast.
ahah anyways. spanish test freakin aced that ishh. idk maybe. but i have an a- now soo im super happy. like i was screaming. ahah im a nerd. i know.
then after school me and adam went job hunting. cuz he needs a job for job exp? something like that i forgot.
but yes i really wanna work at barnes and nobles now. ahah i thought about it and it would be pretty cool. so liana said they were hiring at pinkberry and i was like agh i dont wanna work there cuz of this chick that works there and so we go in to ask for applications cuz adam wanted one. and wow she was in there. she looked at me with that sarcastic smile and asked if i wanted yogurt. psh. whatever.

ahh im super excited for tomorrow. last day of school. dang imma be so fat. we're gonna have a potluck at lunch and imma have a party right afterwards. geez. im sucha fatass. aha
but its also andrew's birthday. woo do i have a surprise for him ;]
too bad he wont be home cuz hes going to the graduation. ahha.
but yeahh im full and i feel fat again.
i ate subway. and it took me forever to pick out a birthday card for andrew. geez. so indecisive.
my brother isnt any help -_-
but overall goood dayy. ive been in a really good mood lately. aahha

soo 2 more days

till school ends. im super happy. no more school. no more mr power. ugh hes annoying. no more homework. no more waking up early. well until xc starts. ahh im tired. i feel like the more i sleep the more tired i am.
soo i think things are running pretty smoothly. i have to say that im almost back to my normal self. it took a while but im almost there. i think. i just dont want another drop.
summer is right around the corner. and im super excited. & it feels like everyone's birthday is in june? i still havent got jade's present cuz i honestly dont know what to get her. i dont wanna be like everyone else that gave her like the same thing. so im still thinking.
ah man i really hope my mom doesnt change her mind about me getting a job. i REALLY need some money. i dont know how imma survive summer with money. without money you cant go anywhere! gas is hella expensive again.
just 2 more days. 2 looooooooooong days. im so glad im on track with my credits. geez everyone is all worrying about getting their rop done. im donee with it (: sweet.
but overall i think this is going to be the best summer yet. especially cuz i have my license this year. so ride wouldnt be an issue.
this roller coaster is too intense for me. hah life has too many surprises and it makes me excited and nervous at the same time.
idk but im pretty freakin excited for senior year. i just wanna get it over with. & college. oo man i am looking forward to college. ahha yee. i just hope things turn out the way i want it to be for once.

relay for lifee

today was alright. picked up krystal and went to lorbeer for relay for life.
found amanda and walked around then went to cvs and bought some arizona. came back and walked some more
there was this kid that was pretty freakin annoying that kept hugging krystal. ahah whatever. we kept walking and walking. esther came. walked with her. then amanda left? idk she disappeared. but we found her again. walked some more. they finally gave out food. so we waited for a long time. haha we got like 4 plates of food. ahhahah. we're such fat asses. we were super full and cold after we ate so we went back to my car and listened to music and took pictures. haha it was fun
now im tired. again.

free membership to la fitness?

lies. i dont believe it. ahha
so i napped when i got homeee. long day once again. 3 more days! & now i really need to get started.

todayy i completely forgot it was friday so i woke up normally like all the other days. like at 7. damn man too effin early. ahah but i ate and stuff. so it was nice.
mara came down and surprised everyone. it was so nice to see esther and mara hug. idk it made me feel happy for them. it was cute. lol
went to the shoppes got super bored. went back to her gma's house then decided to go the food 4 less sortaish. went to db to meet up with cassandra. ahah it was pretty funny. (:
it was fun. dropped off mara. came home and atee. so i waited for like an hr before i fell asleep for like 2 hrs. so here i am now.
and the only reason why i woke up cuz this dumb idiot called me telling me someone said i'd be interested for a free membership at la fitness. and to go down tonight. wth im too lazy for this.
but yeah thats my day. im tired.

dammnn

lakers are fuckin amazing. ahhaha. 3-1
theyre taking it this year. (:

alright day. nothing much happened. finished up malcolm x. really good movie.
presentations for 2nd and 3rd period. i kept eating. lol lunch was alright. 4th period didnt do much. someone told on yamashita about letting use phones in class. idiots. 5th period just getting extra credit. 6th period was super long. took the attendence down with michael. came back up and played cards for the rest of the period. uhhh after school got hawaiian bbq & then starbucks.
ahahh yee.


happy birthday jade.(:

counting down

5 more days. and its all over! yess
well not necessarily. but yeahh (:
just gotta really worry about my bio presentation. i need it. other than that everything is all goooood. no worries
uhhh long day. so sleeepy. took a 3 hr nap it was very niceee. (:
i love what people wrote in my yearbook (:
makes me smile

dont forget

soooo today was whatever super tired. shelly baked jade cupcakes for her birthday on thursday. it looked super good. so i put it on her desk and she was super happy with a big ass smile. (: hahah
it was delicious but made me thirsty. 2nd period presentations. 3rd. more presentations. lunch was whatever. haha i caused a huge scene cuz im too dramatic but it was funny. ahha 4th period mr yamashita played dont forget by demi lovato and i was singing to it . ahha he laughs and plays all these girly pop songs to me and asks if i know it. i didnt know some of them. that period is so chill. but it goes by so slow. 5th period. aced my oral final. sweeet. now we do nothingg. so imma miss the seniors :[. technically we're seniors already. sortaish. 6th period. ate ice cream. worked on my esponjas for spanish. ahha waited after school for andrew. and talked to yuong. amanda. and adam and all those people. it was coooool.
yeeeee. chill today. lakers are playing tonight. sweeeeeet

oo mondays

mondays always feel so long.
first period. watched malcolm x. i really like that movie. pretty intense stuff. & im pretty surprised they didnt talk about the lakers game. dang super intense stuff right there. im so mad that i missed all the good shots cuz i was working on my research paper. i got 16% plagerized. which isnt bad. i expected it to be less though. since i bsed so much of it. ahhah
2nd period. people presented and yeahh nothing really.
3rd period. i presented. i thought i was ready but i guess not and just had a horrible presentation. i can careless though cuz i will end up with an A at the end anyways ahha. that class is a joke.
lunch was whatever. i was doing a magic trick on jade and kayleen. kayleen caught on. shes super smart but jade on the other hand.. ahha
4th period. didnt do much. just did grammar. and uhh gotta do the quote thingy probably tomorrow. lol
5th period didnt do much. just sat around and signed yearbooks. i have an oral final tomorrow. blahh i hate spanish. ahha
6th period. didnt do much. failed my final that i didnt care about. still have an A whateverr.
uhh yeah pretty long and tiring day. im happy. i just ate in n out. lol i REALLY need to stop eating fast food. :[ its so unhealthy. and ive been eating out for a few days now.
jade's birthday is coming up. so is andrew's. dang i feel like i have so much to do. but im too lazy to do it. ahha i STILL have to work on my presentation for biology. which i actually care about. cuz it will bump me up to a B-. i neeeed it.
but overall i hope this week will be good.
i LOVE adam's haircut. he finally did it. im so glad. geeeeeeeeeez. and yeah
brother has a concert tonight. gonna watch him. blahh. i need to start running soon.

3 years went by quickly

im still kinda freaking out how fast these past 3 years have gone by. and now im trying to fix everything with everyone so i can start my senior year good and not all stupid like this school year.
i will miss a lot of the idiotic things ive done. and even though this school year wasnt as great as i expected it to be 2 years ago, im still thankful for all the friends that stuck by my side and all that good stuff. ive learned a lot this year. and im sure i'll learn even more as times goes by. ive gained and lost people on the way. and im glad we all matured in some way. and this week is the last whole week of school left. part of me is kinda sad that its over but at the same time im so happy its over.
but outta all of these 3 years i have to admit that freshmen year was the best. i miss mara terribly and i know that if she stayed everything wouldve been different. but it all happens cuz idk maybe im suppose to learn something from it. and i guess i have. sophomore year was good also. but not as good as freshmen year. cuz we had horrible food. lol but i got closer to people and got to know people for who they are and all that good stuff. i TRY to look past all those flaws. and now. this year. im thankful for all those people that tried to help me and try to understand my stupid problems. problems that i cause myself cuz im dumb. aha but overall ive learned that yelling doesnt get the point across. all the tears. all the screaming. it didnt get me anywhere. so going to let things flow as much as i can. i dont wanna end the school year badly.
ive had my ups and downs. its been a rough ride but its not over yet. hah. im not done until im ready to get off.

almost doneee

done with my subject tests. sweeet.
now for my SAT reasoning. -_-
anyways today was a pretty good day. first took the SATs took about 3 hrs. then got pho with adam.
planned to go to the cooper's house during the day cuz we were too scared. lol but couldnt find it. ahha soo idk maybe friday. uhh then we went to get boba. texted people for ideas as to what to do. but never really got a good sugestion. called esther and she said we should get adam a haircut so we did and yeahh i like it a lot. ahha & his parents like it so its all good
came home. ate. talked on the phone. started my research paper. imma try to finish it up tonight and hopefully be able to get let andrew check it over and turn it in tomorrow night. yeeeeah. then imma try to work on my powerpoint for biology and decide what imma say for my precal presentation on monday. yeah thats it. finals are coming up. im ready for this year to end.

ahh another week a 3 days of school left!

im so glad summer is almost here and school is almost out. dang. ive wanted this school year to end for so long. so tired of it. i still have a bunch of projects to do. dang. still have a report i havent started thats due on monday night. and uhh i need to finish my powerpoint for bio. yeeep. idk the weather is kinda lame. its almost summer and its like all cloudy and stuff. kinda sucks.
buuuut SATs tomorrow. which sucks. might as well get it over with. i dont wanna screw up again. hah. uhh i think that is it. just super happy the school year is almost over.

so

saturday was the most fun ive had for a loong time. ever since sunday ive been in a bad mood. but im getting better.
too much shit is going on and its annoying. just gotta deal with it i suppose. i want finals to be over with. i dont wanna go to school anymore.
im ready for senior year. im done with junior year.
fine art showcase tonight. i hope i can work some things out.

this is by

far the worst day of my life.
the worst year ever.