silence is golden

today was by far one of the worst school days EVER. it had its ups but most of the time ive been downn. i didnt talk to him ALL day cuz i decided that i'll stop talking to him and stuff. but idk it felt horrible. its so hard to NOT talk to him. i didnt realize that talking to him mad me so happy. i dont know i have too much in mind. irvin's birthday is tomrorow and i was gonna bake him cupcakes but decided not to cuz things just came up. family problems. boy problems. ugh i dont know what to do. i dont like this. and i dont think imma go to sadies anymore. idk SATs the next day just kills it. idk things are just.. ugh.. horrible..