i almost had you

school is longer every single day. biology is soo long. all we do is take notes and since yesterday i didnt pay attention im completely lost today. blahh. everything is so repetitive. wake up go to school come home from school eat. sleep. those are the basic routines. i seriously want something new. something for me to look foward to. something that makes me want to go to school. im so tired of it. i just wish that things werent so boring. i think too much. i suppose. well at night at least. like i said its only the times when im alone with no one to talk to that i think a lot. i really wish i didnt cuz it just makes me sad. and i guess lately ive been mood swinging a lot more lately? i dont even know. at school im normally alright but its the times when im at home with nothing better to do. i mean it sounds kinda weird to say but i really feel like im lost. i dont know where im going. i have plans but im not sure if those plans are what i really want. time is flying right past me and before i know it, its gonna be graduation and everyone is going off to their college and do what theyre gonna do. but as for me idk what imma do. sure imma go to college and stuff but i have no idea what i wanna do like at all. stress stress stress i REALLY HATE junior year. i thought it would be so much fun but its all about grades grades grades SATs grades SATs grades ughhhhh. i hate it. i just wanna take a break. a weekend isnt enough for me. it goes by way too quickly and i hate it. and now its 2nd semester which means things are gonna be even worse. more homework. ap test. SATs. aye. and as for sadies. i dont even know if imma go. SATs is the next morning... ugh geez.