bad timing.

everything is blah right now. nothing is going right.
so many freakin problems. just when i thought that everything was going to be alright this happened.
got the rings today. they look super good. & idk. andrew seem very tired & wasnt very talkative.
i felt horrible & i didnt know what to do. so when i saw him smile afterschool idk. i was very happy.
his hugs are amazing and this kid is like stalking us and telling his brother about everything. maaaaaaan. im super scared.
i really dont know whats going to happen. this friday is our one year. so many problems are coming our way & im hoping that we're ready for it.
idk how i can get him to open up to me and tell me how hes feeling. i try really hard. i mean i think i get enough. but idk. i feel horrible. i just wish i can do something to help him feel better.
last night's conversation was very empty and quiet. i felt like everything just went away for a second. until i saw him at school. i showed him the ring and he was just eh about it.
maaaan. im trying really hard to make this work. & i know hes trying also. well at least im hoping. everything was so great last year & all of a sudden. summer came and killed us.
but i know we'll make it. i know we will. as long as he loves me & i love him.
timing is just very bad right now. i hope it gets better...