this is the end

so today wasnt that great of a day. we finally broke up. we've been lagging it for like a couple weeks. maybe even a month. i mean part of me is kinda sad about it but at the same time im really relieved.
its hard to believe that we could throw away a year just like nothing. after all those promises that we made each other.
its very hard to believe. i cant believe it myself.
but what has to be done is already done. its going to take some time getting use to it but im sure that everything will go back to normal soon. i dont wanna lose him as a friend. cuz hes a very good friend. and i will consider him as a best friend. well to me at least.
love its difficult. i really dont know it was real love or not maybe just something else. hah. but yeeah.
idk.