its sour on the outside and sweet in the inside

today was blah. i didnt wanna wake up like normally. the only thing i really look forward to now its driving and seeing him. idk. halloween is tomorrow and wow chloe and krystal made sucha huge scene today after school in ms chiu's room. they kept talking about what we're doing tomorrow. it made my head hurt seriously.
first period was super boring. the only thing that kept me awake was writing a note to andrew.
2nd period i was working on my corrections for my test cuz he wanted the test back by the end of the period. i didnt pay attention to the lecture today.
3rd period. lame lame lame. sam came in with starbucks haha what a weenie.
4th period. we had a super hard time coming up with a halloween story.
lunch was lame. andrew wasnt there. he was taking his test for pre cal. i ate half of krystal's subway ahha. she needs to eat more. :[
5th period. i havent taken my spanish test yet and man. im too scared to check my grade. i did bad on my scrapbook blah.
6th period. we made pizza it was hella good
after school was eh. i gave to slices of pizza to andrew cuz he didnt eat lunch :]
tutored krystal for an hr about pre cal
hah
overall the day was ehh. not the best.

ouch

i swear every time i miss school for a day the next day i feel so lost. it sucks so bad.
i was soo tired. i was on the phone with andrew last night and yeah it was coooool. then afterwards i called adam and we talked for like an hr and a half about absolutly NOTHING. idk i was bored and he was bored. after the phone call i knocked out. im pretty tired. i almost fell asleep in first period but i didnt. 2nd period mr anderson wasnt there. soo i couldnt do anything since i didnt have my scantron. freakin tu and bianca are soo loud. all through out the period we just did nothing but laugh. well i didnt laugh that much mainly bianca and tu. idk then for the last 5 mins of class we were trying to do what yuong and antwon does with their pencils. haha its so hard! i cant do it :[ but its ok
3rd period. idk i was kinda lost but then i caught up. it was easy. it smells like rats still gross.
4th period we just took the benchmark.
5th period ms rodriguez was PISSED cuz we were being "rude" cuz we wouldnt shut up. and imma make up my test tomorrow.
6th period did nothing. ernie kept talking about weed. ahah it was funny.
after school this football player was just bending down to get his stuff and all of a sudden this white boy comes and kicks him and socks him in the face. and he ran right afterwards. the football player was like wtf and was wiping his lip cuz it was bleeding. all the football players came rushing to see what happened and wow that kid got some nerve to do that. yep thats it. more interesting than alll the other days thats fersure.
idk i was pretty happy today after school :] heehee

ughhh

today i didnt go to school. apparently i ate something wrong and i was allergic to it. i doubt it though. i didnt eat anything new. it was pretty badd. ughh i couldnt go to school but i slept all day since i didnt sleep last night. i called andrew and told him what happen soo people wouldnt need to ask me why i wasnt there. ugh im so tired. i feel like a drama queen every time i tell someone i passed out like 3 or 4 times. i literally did. i hit my head and now my head hurts. bad day.
last night i went with bianca and got 3 hrs of community service. it was nicee. that guy was cute (:
woot hassan for mayor! i missss andrewww. :[ i didnt see him all day and its weirdd. haha.

womanizer

yesterday andrew came over and it was better than i thought it would be. we didnt get anything done. but i did teach him something. haha :] he came over with jack in the box and bought me a jumbo jack and a taco? but i didnt eat. ahah hes so sweet. sometimes. hah. the test today was hella hard. ughh. but good news i still have an A in history. well an A- but w/e i never do anything in that class. im always spacing out. irvin was gonna buy me lunch today? idk he always leaves early and goes buy lunch and come back and he said on thursday hes gonna get me boba. even though boba is so bad for you :[
i like told russell dont drink boba its bad for you! and miss northrop and russell was like whattt? and i told them its something about the milk tea being bad from china. and russell is going to die but he said its so good he doesnt care. soo i was like oo alright then. we watched a little bit of the crucible. ahha funny stuff. idk i thought it was funny. i stole paden's paper and copied the answer. mwuahha. and dang i hardly talked during 5th period. i didnt talk to yuong cuz he was being mean soo i was like hah o well. adam idk whats wrong with him. hes like emo or something. hah jk (:
ummm we're making pizza this thursday woot. (: pineapple and ham <3
dang boba and pizza this thursday. imma get fat. i really needa work out again.
after school. idk whats wrong with jade. shes like pmsing or something. idk she doesnt like the fact that i call her a stalker even though she is. >.<
other than that today was pretty chill. better than usual actually. im tired. and yeah.
i hope everything gets better from here :] <3

bobacakes

ok well yesterday i went to chloe's house and we just chilled at this one party her neighbor/friend was having. soo we went and there was like no one there. then i heard that gwen was gonna be there [my cuzin] so we didnt talk much haha. and she said i owe her ice cream from like freakin 10 years ago. wow. cant believe she remembers that. ahha good times. i miss those days. so stayed there and we played capture the flag which took forever but we won at the end. freakin i dropped my phone in the process trying to chase this guy down which piss me off. cuz i couldnt even run in my sandels i was so scared of like tripping or something. and chloe introduced me to this cute guy name dominic idk if thats how you spell it but yeah. he was pretty cute ahah and he was all flirting with us. it was funny. but yeah. then we went to krystal's house cuz chloe bugged me for like 2 or 3 hrs to go and she freakin bruised me in the process. ughh and i was wearing shorts soo it was all obvious. i didnt notice until we got to the mall. well when we got to krystal's house we chilled for a bit and went to soup plantation and ate. i didnt eat much cuz i wasnt that hungry. ahha it was fun. then we went to the mall. and yeeeah. after that we went to cherry on top and got yogurt. THANKS TO CAROL FOR PAYING FOR EVERYTHING! then we went to krystal's house and we played hangman while chloe and carol were doing some sorta of dance thingy. ahaha it was soo ironic. she spelt my name without a 'n' at the end cuz she didnt have enough room and my nickname for chloe is bobacakes and my word was lollicup.
krystal lost. ahha then we played 2 vs 2 and me and chloe won again. cuz chloe came up with some impossible word. so we had to go and carol was rushing back to give me and chloe a ride home. dang. it sucked cuz the cops were there and i thought that she was gonna get in trouble. cuz first of all she was speeding and then she wasnt suppose to have passengers. THANKFULLY she looks older than her actual age. ahah. but overall it was fun i suppose. killed a lot of time and yeah. andrew is coming over today and we'll see how that goes.
i really need to study for ap bio. aghhh.

i need something different

this is probably by far the worst start of the school year. well for me its sorta in the beginning still. my grades still suck even though when the progress report came it wasnt as bad as i thought.
but worst of all NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT. i have nothing to look forward to everyday. its the same thing like almost everyday. wake up. get ready. drive to school. go to school. drive home from school. homework. aim. myspace. phone. shower. sleep. thats alll and its making me so sad to know that everything is so different. sophomore year was the best. i didnt need to stress over anything. i didnt care about anything. all i did was try my best to have the most fun i can possibly have. and i did. but this year is a pain in the butt. i gotta study for all these stupid tests cuz i never pay attention. i always daydream about things that probably arent gonna happen any time soon. life just sucks. i want everything to be like how it use to be last year. and tonight is homecoming and im not even going. cuz he never/didnt want to asked me. ugh. i just miss how things use to be. i seriously do. i miss him most of all but i cant do anything about it... people dont realize how much easier he made my life. i didnt realize it either until i finally lost him. i just hateee how things are right now. i need change. change for the better. and i need it soon. cuz im tired of waiting.

i like this car..

ok so today wasnt that greatest at first but at the end it was pretty great.
i had a rough start again in the beginning. first period was soo boring. so we 2nd and 3rd and 4th was ok 5th i was pmsing and i wanted chocolate but for once yuong didnt have candy. 6th period ugh what a drag.
those stupid hoes were complaining that they couldnt do anything cuz once they did i gave them a loook. ok i did so what? it shouldnt stop you for contributing to the group. thats just a lame excuse soo after 6th period i was kinda worried about andrew and his leg. it was sad cuz everyone was making fun of him cuz he couldnt walk right. cuz he was limping :[
so then i drove home. stopped by costco and went to my aunt's house and came home. waited for victoria to come pick us up to go to the homecoming game which sucked btw.
except this white lady omg. she was so funny ahahah she had the highest voice ever and she kept screaming ahhahah. we left the game early cuz we didnt wanna leave when everyone was leaving so we left and then we went to the shoppes. got pinkberry and sat in barnes and nobels for a while and we were looking at books. this one cupcake book was so good. ahha it made me want cupcakes. we left barnes a nobles and we sat outside taking pictures and these dumb guys were like BED TIME i was like wtf stfu. then we just continued taking pictures and after that we just sat there staring at the pretty lights again. haha
on our way to the car meghan kept saying how cute victoria's car was ahahah she was like getting horny cuz of the car. LMAO. omgg funny stuff.
good night.

like this or like that?

tomorrow is finally friday. its been a long week and im kinda glad in some way. our ap bio exam is postponed till monday. soo now i can procrastinate on sunday instead of tonight. today was pretty interesting. mainly cuz of miss northrop's class. hahah oo dang shes good. she asked us who cheated and that she only knows one person in our class that cheated on the scarlet letter cuz someone told her. and everyone started to freak out. she pointed to shawn and said that shawn cheated. shawn was like oo thats bs. outta everyone jenny is the one that cheats the most. and jenny's face was like omg. are you freakin kidding me? and once shawn said jenny's name oo dang everyone was like omg. thats so messed up. and jenny was kinda mad like wtf why would i cheat blah blah. and if they point you out you either have to accept the suspension or call someone out and said they cheated also. jenny said zi cheated zi said that sean cheated. and wow it was so dumb cuz they randomly just started point fingers at people. jacob was all scared cuz he did have the answers to it but he never gave it out. and i couldnt believe that miss northrop can pull it off. she looked very pissed/serious/sad/disappointed. idk i was surprised. i wasnt scared cuz i know i probably failed that stupid test anyways. hah.
then 5th period spanish was pretty funny. cuz it was me michelle and yuong and we were just talking about how guys who are taller are more prefered than guys who are shorter and he was just laughing at us. idk. he was gonna gimme a discount on candy. buy one and get one free but i already bought it from zippy. hah. spanish went by so quickly today. and adam idk whats wrong with him. haha he seems so sad but he said nothing is wrong.
6th period omg i was mad. those stupid hoes NEVER DO ANYTHING. its me and bianca that do all the preparations and stuff. and after are done that stupid fat ass takes all the food and we're left with NOTHING. stupid ughh. im freakin serious imma take all the muffins tomorrow and theyre only gonna get one each. shit they never did anything. stupid lazy ass seniors.

could be better

today was ok. pretty tired though and i had a headache.
i went to the black out rally. i was surprised who were the princes and princesses. and people actually boo'd them and stuff. thats so rude. and then when the band was playing that one thing no one was listening and they kept screaming 09' and 10' i was like wow. but overall it was ok. not the best. ahha after the rally was fun. me and jade were just standing outside and we found adam so we starting talking to him and i told him how annoyed i was of this freshman. ughh annoying ass kid. then idk it was so weird but funny. ahha andrew came and i told him the same story and he thinks im weird. me and jade hid his clarinet and he scared me. and then me and jade took his clarinet and music and ran to our cars and i was too slow and didnt lock my door quick enough but i didnt give the clarinet back until i was forced to leave. hahah funny stuff.
my head hurts. it hurts even more cuz freakin chloe tackled me after school! -_-
and i FINALLY paid my dues!

HAPPPPY BIRTHDAY MARA CHRIS TUCKER DOROUGH (: <3

i got this ice box where my heart use to be

this morning when i got to school everyone was copying each other's lab. hah. it was lame. then andrew finally came over and gave me my calculator and i was helping with his lab since he didnt even do it. i graphed my data cuz his data was wrong and he was copying my analysis questions. then
first period it was boring. we just took notes and he postponed the test for another day.
2nd period we turned in our lab and took notes. exam on friday. i gotta freakin study. agh. andrew is coming over on wednesday after rehearsal i think so we can study for ap bio and do our activities and self quiz.
3rd period is so lame. we did this notebook check and i just remembered we have homework. hah.
4th period. we had to write about whats going on with our lives right now and we debated on a few things. ahhah russell had to like poop or something but he couldnt lmao. and miss northrop just told him that he should go to the bathroom and go poop but he said its not that feeling. haha. he drank like 2 bobas. wow. then we talked about what a perfect wife was back in the day. the wives were like slaves to the husbands. it was ridiculous.
lunch. it was finally the food carnival but i didnt really wanna eat. the food wasnt all that good. andrew bought a grip load of food but didnt finish it. he lemme taste his fried rice and it taste so plain. gosh i can make better fried rice than that. and i cant cook.
5th period tj gave our whole class free pinkberry cuz he had so many leftover. hahah i was surprised ms rodriguez didnt really care. she was kinda pissed that the person who when down to go tell the people who werent on the list for that carnival thingy to come to class and they completely ignored that person so the person she sent came back and told her what happen and yeah. we played this tic tac toe game in spanish i won haha.
6th period was slowww. me and bianca finished our work so early and we sat there for a long time waiting for time to pass. and on my way to 6th period i saw neomi crying so i asked her what happened. she didnt tell me and walked away so i was like um ok.
then after school i waited in line for my black out rally ticket and then i have to wait till tomorrow to pay my club due. man my freakin csf due is 2 days late already. blah
well when i got to the front i asked neomi what happened and she told me she couldnt tell me so i was like umm alright.
so now im home doing nothing. probably gonna start my hw so i can get it over with. my aunts are coming over for dinner. hah. i went to bianca's house to drop off this egg thingy. idk what its called in english. its super good though. so i finally met her mom cuz her mom wants to know who i am since she was complaining how she didnt know who i was but yet she let bianca go to the movies with me and stuff. haha it was so awkward. but it was cool.
i needa study. blah

i dont understand

ok i went to take the psat today and it was pretty bad. i didnt do so well except the math part made me feel a lot better. then andrew's parents took me , andrew, and adam to hometown buffet. victoria met us there and we ate. it was fun. then krystal came and we went to the mall and watched quarantine. it sucked period. it wasnt scary. idk horrible ending. the people in there looks disgusting. then we went to barnes and nobles and got my crucible book for extra credit. i got home around 6 30 ish
and freakin my mom started yelling at me once i got inside the house saying that i always go out. WTF. idk im just mad. so i was like fine w/e i didnt eat dinner and just came upstairs and started on my lab. then she freakin drives off and goes to like 99 ranch without me. agh. w/e
idk it wasnt that great of a day. it couldve been so much better. victoria made me feel a little better when we were in the car when she dropped me off. i just wish that i can more of those conversations with my closer friends. blah. everything sucks. i just want my license like NOW.
i dont wanna do anything and just take a break. im so ready for thanksgiving break now. or even better winter break. i want this year to be over with. i want everything to go back to normal. but too bad it isnt that easy. idk so complicated. so much stress.

STRESSS ERR

ap bio is killing meeee. i gotta study my goodness for that stupid exam next friday! even though it may seem like a while well not really its gonna come up quick! i havent read at all. AGHH. fml.
im not ready. but yeah. idk my grades are VERY BAD. im still trying to get comfortable but its not really happening. and now i got a lab due monday and i barely did anything. my data table arent even filled out yeah. and spanish omg. I HATE MS MENDEZ FOR BEING SUCHA HORRIBLE TEACHER! im doing so bad in spanish 3 cuz idk where the accents goes.! i always misplace them. we had to present and i was so nervous. my voice was shaky and so was my hand HAH! dang. im sucha dork. but yeah. it was pretty bad. i hope i did good. SPECIAL THANKS TO KRYSTAL YANG FOR HELPING ME WITH THE DECORATIONS! :] but yeah today wasnt that bad. i STILL didnt pay my due for csf. now i gotta pay 3 more bucks. AGH i shouldve paid earlier but i kept forgetting and then everyone is paying for their stupid homecoming tickets.
psat tomorrow. i cant sleep in till sunday! agh. but its all worth it cuz imma go to the movies with andrew, adam, victoria & krystal [hopfully], and bianca woot. gonna FINALLY see eagle eye. me and andrew planned this for the longest time but it had to be postponed so many times.
and im sooo excited for monday. its gonna be soo dope. FINALLY GOOD FOOD! i actually something to look forward to now. besides the movies tomorrow.
and OMG. fuckin tu she like dug her nails into my wrist. and i was fucking bleeding. i dont even get a fucking sorrrry! STUPID JERK. she thinks its ok cuz i barely hit her stomach it wasnt her stomach it was her side! AGH. stupid aghh. so mad
i was gonna slap her but then thats the point she wont do anything but just hurt me more. stupid idiot.

what?

i seriously think im getting sick. & my back is killing me. i feel so old. ever since we came back from knotts my back looks like krystal's! ahah (;
danng man. i was so hungry cuz nhs took a while to sign in and when i finally signed in bianca, jade, and kayleen took a while. but then kayleen disappeared. idk where she went. hah. but it was pretty chill. we had a sub for first period and it was soo boring. even the sub was falling asleep.
soo today is the 16th. it feels like we've been school for sucha long time but then if you really look at it its only been like a little longer than a month. school is so stressful. dang freshmen & sophomore year was so freakin easy. i didnt needa study for anything and everything was so chill. and now i gotta study and stuff. gayy.
bio was much better today. we continued our lab but it went by quick. jade was being stupid. and i yelled at her at lunch cuz she threw carrots at me while i was trying to do something i forgot what. but yeah she noticed i got mad so she stopped i felt bad.
i think im actually starting to like spanish now. its fun and omg nina is very annoying but it was funny ahhaha. she kept laughing over the littlest thing and whats her name idk how to spell it so im not until i learn how to spell her name hahah. she was like very annoyed but she tried to play it off. it was very entertaining hahah.
then adam was very nice and bought me a twix from yuong cuz i was hungry. chocolate isnt the best thing to eat. but hey food is food. haha thank you adam (:
and then idk we were talking about hair. haha cuz yuong doesnt do his hair anymore so i told him that his hair looks soft. and so i touched it and i was surprised cuz it wasnt very soft. O_o i touched michelle's and yeah it was azn hair. ahha. we had a sub for that class also. mr h was our sub and he was doing something for chem idk. and brian was in charge. and he doesnt know me so he asked what my name was so i can get participation points and i told him its jacky chan and ahah his face was like what?! O_o ahahha. he kept calling me jen and jen got mad and was like i dont even look like her! ahah. in english irvin was being dumb and conceited and wont make me my quesadilla! >.< and idk he was like making up history and me and zippy were like wth we never heard of that before.
russell was falling asleep. again.
6th period i gotta say was the BEST. cuz we made food of course.! but im freakin serious that thing was so bomb. i was nice and i split it into 3. one for me, one for andrew, and one for adam. ahhah. im nice like that (:

yeah i know

i know that im acting immature about this issue but hey i never said i was mature. i can mature in some cases but yeah most of the time im not. hah. just wow i cant believe it. im not scary at all well maybe cuz i look pissed off all the time but still i wouldnt do anything.

well lets talk about schoool :[
first period was sooo boring. we watched a movie and took notes. i hate first period.
2nd. was boring too. jade wasnt there and we did a lab.
3rd was cold and it was easy. ahah i hate precal though
4th was cold also. it was hard we had to like idk what we were doing. ahha
5th period was fun. i was trying to do this pen thingy that yuong tried to teach me. it didnt work out so well.
6th period sucks it was so boring. and bianca hasnt gone to school for the longest time. but shes coming back tomorrow! yay (:

and yeahh i think im getting sick. not a good sign. :[
everyone around me are sick sorta. idk what happened to jade she like disappeared or something. idk
and um.. mara i wish i could go to your house on nov 1st for your bday but idk if i can. i shall try (:

krystal came over and shes helping me out with my project cuz shes way more creative than i am. yep. woot gonna make quesadillas tomorrow (: . im readyyy.

HAH OMG.

i cant believe she has the nerves to talk so much crap and yet shes scared of me at school.
i wasnt even gonna do anything today cuz yeah "im too immature becuz i like andrew so much"
AHAHHA funny stuff.
well w/e im not gonna do anything. SINCE YOUR ASS IS GONNA READ THIS ANYWAYS im just letting you know im not gonna do shit even if youre scared of me and still talking shit.
dont think i dont know cuz i know.

aww que cute ahahah (:

APPARENTLY SOME STALKERS ARE READING THIS.!

well just wanted to share a nice poem that someone special wrote to me (:


There is this beautiful girl that I think about night and day
She will always be in my heart, and forever stay.
See, it's whenever I see her smile that I'd be happy for the longest while
Or just by hearing her heart-warming voice, I'd wanna jump up and rejoice
But it's her overall beauty inside and out
That makes me love and trust her without a doubt
So the girl that I talk about, her name is Jacky
And she is the one who truly makes me happy.

wow unbelievable

shes so dumb. like she contradicts everything.
ok i had no problem with her until she said she hated me um ok. sure.
she says that her "junior friends" think im a hoe. ok how am i a hoe? i flirt with just ONE guy ahaha wow very slutty of me. and plus all the juniors she knows probably knows me and are in band. i dont have problems with any one of them.
ok im immature for liking andrew so much? and that i should get over him. yes i should get over him but its not that easy. i mean you should be the one that gets over him cuz i mean at least he still likes me at least a little bit and im going to work with it. and overall he is my best friend.
he doesnt even like you and youre just a little freshman. ok sure im a junior but so what ?
i mean why the fuck do you care what i think about anyways? i didnt do shit to you. youre always the one that is dogging me after school for no reason and i just laugh it off. just cuz youre a freshman doesnt mean you dont have a chance with him. me being a junior has nothing to do with it.
you barely even know andrew and youre so sprung over him ok. you dont know shit about him all you know is that hes korean, his name and that he plays a clarinet. dont say shit.
fuck i dont wanna deal with an idiotic freshman like you.
its only between me and andrew and nothing with you so i suggest you stfu. cuz all my friends think youre fucking hilarious anyways for being a retard.

okayyy

today after school was probably the most exciting thing that happened so far since school started.
everyone was crowding around to watch him ask her to homecoming! haha it was soo exciting. too bad some other jerk asked her already and now she cant decide who to go with.. :[
well imma talk to her tonight and see wsup.
ok soo FRESHMAN is like super scared of me LMAO. im not scary am i? of course not. but she was being hella annoying. she wouldnt stfu so i was like omg andrew tell her to stfu
i guess she heard me. and andrew was like SHHH. :] i love him. hes great.
well nothing interesting happened. i was super tired and every class was boring. i had like 2 differnet subs. who knows how many i'll have tomorrow.
once again.. idk what my homework is. i never know. i think i should get an agenda. my goodness.
psat & movies this week. woot (:
dang i didnt go to the club meeting. i hope he isnt mad and kick me out :[

time to vent.

omg. you idiotic freshman cant you fuckin see that he doesnt like you!
but yet youre soo hard headed to admit that!
omgg. you wonder why 5 fuckin guys like you? cuz youre a hoe! for flirting with some many stupid freshmen.
ugh. im just mad. why cant you see that?
you hate me cuz i flirt with a guy you dont even have a chance with? uh okay. i dont wanna deal with stupid freshmen like youu.
stupid ugly bitch. ugh. blahh. idk
you dont have a chance and thats final. hes only playing stupid and pretending he doesnt know your ass likes him. even though you make it soo obvious. well w/e


ok update!
ive decided that imma just wait cuz i know its going to take time. as long as i know he still likes me at least a little bit then its ok. im going to do it. and yeah screw that ugly bitch. she has no match. shes outta my league! HAHAHA. bitch.

woot

went to knotts scary farm last night. it was fun even though it went from 16 people going to 4 -_-
but it was fun. we went into about idk how many mazes but im guessing like 5 or 6. and 2 rides. 3 for me and krystal. chloe was freakin out the whole time when we went on that train ride that went like 10 mph. ahah it was fun though. both krystal and chloe held onto my hand soo tight. i was like dannng. calm down. and eww my hand started to sweat. not so good. irvin didnt end up going. but i didnt really mind. it wouldve been more fun if more people went but eh o well.
the mazes werent that bad. even though everyone said that quarantine was super scary haha we were gonna go in it but we chickened out at the end cuz dang everyone's face when they came out. haha.
krystal got super scared when the clowns with chainsaws came by us. she started to run. luckily they didnt see her run or else they'll chase her. ahah. super fun. except im like super tired & i think i lost my voice. even though i didnt scream that much. i jumped a couple times and like flinched. but i didnt scream that much. i dont think? compared to krystal hhah. yeeah.

yesterday we had a rally also.
they got mad at all the juniors cuz someone had silly string. and said that if we do that again we cant go to the rallys. -_-
stupidd. well yeah. the cheesecake was super bomb. even though we recieved a low score on it. haha. o well.

agh.

school is so boring and tiring. i hate it.
stupid homework & everything else. blah.
today i was ok.
first period. we took a survey. im still behind in my notes i keep forgetting to ask andrew or jade for the notes.
2nd period. hm. i actually had food. granola bar & gummy worms. haha nothing interesting just notes. haha except today anderson made that one thingy idk what its called. its those little thingys where you pick a color then a number and another number and then another number and you get your fortune. haha bianca screamed out "ooo tell me my fortune!" and hes like " youre gonna be ugly for the rest of your life" LMAO. wow i cant believe he said that. jerrrrk.
3rd period. ummm it was lame. im all caught up in that. ummmm... i actually had time to read for english. hah. i never read it.
4th period. took my quiz. and um.. we had to come up with a skit and whoever she calls on must perform it to the class. luckily we didnt get called on cuz we didnt have anything. HAH. and the guy paten however you spell it. he always winks at me when he talks to me. AWKWARD.
5th period. spanish was fun. pretty intense. hahah we were playing these games and dang i was so close to winning. HAHAH we got a tie but i lost cuz i let her win ahahah. yeeeah riiiight.
6th period. we made cheesecakes! woot. our first one didnt look so good. it was pretty bad actually. freakin everyone else like ribbit's group was all up on us telling us to hurry up and blend the stuff. CALM DOWN. geez. and then me and bianca we made one just for us. and those stupid alksdjfklasdjf didnt do anything. stupid fatasses. seriously! they NEVER do anything. its always us that cleans up and shit. they never do anything and its making me mad. today asked her to help us clean cuz me and bianca were busy making the other cheesecake we wanted and she hesistated. and i was like wth. its part of your responsibility to help us clean/cook/bake. she was the one that cut those stupid strawberries and she didnt wanna clean up her own mess. BS. shank and skank. seriously. and she always eats all of our food and we never have enough.

no way

well early this morning i was gonna wake up for school. of course i didnt wanna wake up but when i finally did i got dressed and got ready for school. then when i was driving to school with my mom, she told me to turn the car around and go back to the house. so i did and on my way back i saw bianca in the car going to school hahah. then we took my dad to work. my mom was already pissed cuz she thought we wouldnt make it in time for the funeral. when we got my dad to work, traffic was heavy on the 10 freeeway. we got lucky on the carpool lane and finally got there.
it was quite sad. not many people were there. i thought many were gonna be there. but of course the main people were there. i drove with my mom in the car to rose hills from china town. it was pretty cool since we just go without stopping and stuff. cuz the cops help lead the way. haha.
i havent been to a funeral since my grandpa's and its agh. so sad. my cuzin kept crying and i almost cried cuz she was crying. i usually cry when others do. but yeah very long day.
right after the funeral was practically over, jadyne finally came :[ she was crying so hard cuz she probably didnt know what was going on. poor girl. :[ i felt bad but i didnt go near her cuz her stupid mother. AGH. shank a skank.
well im sure gonna miss him. even though i was never close to him or anything but still hes family and he'll always be in my heart and im thankful for every little thing he has done for our family. <3
R.I.P Jason Ngo.

dang dont even trip!

well today was alright i suppose. didnt do much except krystal is over and we're just idk what we're doing haha.
knotts this friday woooot. and idk it seems so complicated. like the rides and stuff. and whos going and i guess people have problems with certain people going idk.
i guess its kinda dumb how some people dont like others cuz of certain people. idk i think i should stop that. hah. it would sound hypocritical of me to say that i dont do that.
or better yet when people act a certain way around certain people. it kinda bugs me. why are you gonna change who you are just cuz of that person/people. its dumbb. just be yourself. you dont needa impress others for them to like you. eye deeee kay. but idk long week. but this friday is gonna be funnnn. hopefully.
im not purposely trying to use irvin to get over andrew. idk people think like that idk why its dumb. cuz half the time i cant think of anyone to hang around with and irvin is the first to come in mind since he drives and stuff. and he doesnt bring up anything uncomfortable soo i feel good around him and i dont really need to worry so much about anything. but when i hang around with others its fun but idk we always end up gossiping about others. but with guys its like random things. we dont talk shit about anyone cuz guys dont go along with it.
talking to andrew on the phone is nice. its completely random and idk its just nice.
everything is pretty much okay. but some people are just AGHH. idk whats wrong with them. its getting annoying.

alright lets gooo

ok update! i havent done anything on here for a while cuz i didnt know what to say.
well yesterday was the last day my cuzin was alive. they finally took him off life support but now hes in a better place <3 im sure my uncle is up there watching him.
my grades freakin suck period. i have 2 a's 2 b's and a freakin c+ -_-
i guess i failed my history test but like i still have an A soo im goood. we didnt do much today. he played the guitar for us and hes pretty good.
2nd period bio we did a lab and yeah it sucked cuz we messed up. not even our fault. the solution was messed up.
3rd period pre cal. i have a stupid B in there. cuz of the stupid cornell notes & omg that stupid test is going to bring me down. i HATE math now. i use to like math until stupid pre cal seriously.
4th period english is probably my fav class. miss northrop wasnt in a good mood sorta. she seemed very impatient. idk i guess shes just kinda sadish?
ummm 5th period. i did pretty bad on my spanish test. but compared to others i did goood. i got 9 wrong outta 52 pts possible and yeah thats like a freakin B- . i kept missing like a letter or like i missed an accent or something which sucked.
6th period was super HOT. omgah. i was dying in there. thank God its going to cool down tomorrow so we can cook woot. (:
soo basically nothing much happened.
went to irvin's house yesterday from like 630-11ish
we didnt do much. we were going to watch eagle eye but decided not to. and soo imma go watch it with andrew on sunday (: maybe. heehee ahah.
so basically we watched this one movie with a lot of shooting. idk how to spell it but yeah pretty intense movie. and irvin freakin fell asleep. -_- and he tried to cover it up. ahha what a weenie. but yeah yesterday was cool i guess. then we listened to techno music but i was super tired. hahah came home and took a shower & washed up and freakin knocked out. but it was the best sleep ive had since forever. but i didnt talk to andrew last night and im not gonna talk to him tonight either. soo yep. tonight is homework night for me. gotta finish up my hw and yeeah.

one thing i dont understand is that fact that certain people say that youre theyre close friend and yet they go behind your back and say all this stupid stuff. like cmon can you be anymore 2 faced? -_- idk i dont understand them. i mean as for me i do talk about people like a lot but i go to a certain extent. i dont like the fact that people say things are arent even true or like theyre unsure but they think they know everything so they tell the whole world. idk it gets annoying after a while. especially cuz i have little patience. idk people are starting to annoy me but i just let it go and not say anything. i wish sometimes they can take hints. i mean i suck at it but if its this obvious cmon.