i need something different

this is probably by far the worst start of the school year. well for me its sorta in the beginning still. my grades still suck even though when the progress report came it wasnt as bad as i thought.
but worst of all NOTHING IS GOING RIGHT. i have nothing to look forward to everyday. its the same thing like almost everyday. wake up. get ready. drive to school. go to school. drive home from school. homework. aim. myspace. phone. shower. sleep. thats alll and its making me so sad to know that everything is so different. sophomore year was the best. i didnt need to stress over anything. i didnt care about anything. all i did was try my best to have the most fun i can possibly have. and i did. but this year is a pain in the butt. i gotta study for all these stupid tests cuz i never pay attention. i always daydream about things that probably arent gonna happen any time soon. life just sucks. i want everything to be like how it use to be last year. and tonight is homecoming and im not even going. cuz he never/didnt want to asked me. ugh. i just miss how things use to be. i seriously do. i miss him most of all but i cant do anything about it... people dont realize how much easier he made my life. i didnt realize it either until i finally lost him. i just hateee how things are right now. i need change. change for the better. and i need it soon. cuz im tired of waiting.